My skin hurts.
I have been on the Provera/progesterone for 10 days.
Okay, actually I just lied. I decided to try and move this show along a little faster and may have taken a double dose (morning and night) of medication two different days this week.
Okay, I did do this. I figured my body will still respond with a period as long as I take the prescribed dose and am now praying that I didn’t mess something up in my system.
With this hormone boost, my skin has reacted in the form of acne and it’s not pleasant.
In all actuality, it’s quite humiliating. To be 34 years old and have this type of acne.
Hubby is sweet, he says he can’t see it and just notices my skin being red… and that I’m beautiful, good Hubby.
That doesn’t make me feel 100% better, but it is nice to know that it may just be in my head.
Unpleasant reminders of how my body isn’t working properly. (God, please help me love my situation and the body you’ve given me. I know you know all that is in me and all that is to come in our life. God, I do trust you, even when I don’t understand.)
Regardless, this week of extra hormones has not been pleasant. Exhausted and upset that my body didn’t produce a period naturally, I spent this morning in prayer.
God, I really don’t understand my body or what is going on. I try and do research and ask questions, but what I’m coming to realize is that everybody’s body is different and I just have to accept mine as being this way. Completely unpredictable and slightly unexplainable.
I am frustrated that I’m not ‘normal’ and have emotions when I hear others who just ‘get pregnant’. Have I mentioned that my parent’s joke that they just looked at each other and my mom would become pregnant? Yup, twice. The idea of trying or cycle-tracking is completely foreign to my parents. I love them and appreciate their light-hearted comments in the midst of my own discontentment.
Maybe they are on to something though. Light-hearted, open-handed. Not trying, not tracking. Each cycle, I feel I let go a little bit more of the control in timing and just let it be as it will be.
Not trying, not tracking. Each cycle, I feel I let go a little bit more of the control in timing and just let it be as it will be.
Each cycle, I feel I let go a little bit more of the control in timing and just let it be as it will be.
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Oh I took progesterone for awhile too! I was premenopausal or something. Anyways, I can always tell when my hormones are wacky because my hair will hurt. Like my scalp will literally feel like my hair is laying wrong no matter how I put it. It’s a weird, horrible feeling. I did always sleep better on progesterone though.
It’s it crazy how they affect us?! I haven’t had my hair hurt yet but that sounds crazy! Thanks for sharing Jenn!