I thought this cycle was a bust a few days ago and I felt it in my heart. Disappointment.
Here I sit with one wonderful, large follicle and Dr. G is happy.
He sends me home with an HCG trigger shot to give myself in 2 days.
This time it’s a shot in my stomach and I can give it to myself– Hubby is off the hook.
We also get clear instructions on when we are to be together.
These instructions are different than what our OBGYN said so I’m a bit confused and my brain gets activated.
Wait a second?
My OBGYN said to be together every other day leading up to the day of Ovulation and then once the smiley is solid then be together that day and one more day following…
This time I’m hearing NOT to be together until 2 days after the shot and then again the following.
Which one is right?
I don’t know. As much as I want to Google search all the different ways that are recommended.
I don’t know what’s best and we are paying the CCRM clinic a lot of money for their expertise on this so I decided to let go of all the ‘figuring it out’ and just follow along with what they said.
I’m a bit scared. I am grateful for the opportunity to have another chance at having our own biological child and am praying I can relax into these next few days.
Two days ago, I gave myself the trigger shot. It actually wasn’t as bad as I thought. Just grabbed a bit of skin and stuck it in there.
Here we are- the two days Dr. G said to enjoy and I’m scared.
What if this doesn’t work?
What if we have to go through another round of all these tests and medications?
My face hurt with acne from the large dose this time around and I don’t want to go through it again… God, please work in us in these next 2 days. I am praying for a miracle and for the opportunity to be pregnant and give birth and have stretch marks
(Do I even know what I’m asking for right now?)
I know I will be ok if this is not Gods will and not the right timing for us to become parents, but at the same time, I do pray that we are able to and that my body responds and Hubby’s swimmers are strong and ready and that it all comes together.
I have a painful/weird feeling in my right ovary area this morning along with a weird sensation and my body feels ‘off’.
I take it as a sign that I’m ovulating.
Our time together hurts a bit but I keep focusing on what this could mean for us and pray that this is the beginning of our growing family.
God, your will be done. May we receive whatever it is you have for us knowing your desires are good.
We’ve shown up and done what we can and again we wait. We’ve been here before.
What’s new is this time we will go in for a progesterone level test in a week to make sure my levels are where they are supposed to be to welcome the beginning stages of our baby.
God, we surrender.