Well, this is one heck of the way to start 2017!
As I’ve written in the past, my body has not produced a period without the help of hormone medicine. I had my first period when I was in 7th grade (12 years old) and would have occasional periods throughout the year, but nothing regular.
When I entered into high school, my periods went away…. for no reason that I am aware of.
Sure, I was a very active person. I was a gymnast and dancer in middle school while playing soccer. When I entered into high school I began playing volleyball year-around and working out consistently. By college, I was a full-blown exercise bulimic and over-eater which only fueled my need to work out more in order to feel good about myself and my body.
Was this the reason for my lack of a period? Maybe.
At the age of 16, I started on birth control, to give myself a period (as recommended by the doctors). I have not had a period on my own, since.
Until yesterday! December 31, 2016, at the age of 33, I got a period!
Where did this come from? I have no idea!
Over the past 10 1/2 years I have been in recovery from food addiction, which has arrested my over-eating and exercise bulimia, but why get a period now?
In December, I went to Bridgeway Church for a SMASH session, also known as Sozo. My reason for going was not to get my period back, but was to reconnect with God in a way that I felt could only be done with prayer. This was my first time engaging in a Sozo and found it to be very freeing.
One thing we did pray over, was my womb. For the blocks to be removed and the ‘locked door’ to become unlocked.
Was this the reason for me getting my period? Maybe.
From December 24th until today, I have been totally relaxed. I unplugged from technology and work for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day and enjoyed a leisure book (Present Over Perfect by Shauna Niequist), napped and cuddled with my husband.
I became sick with a head-cold that following Tuesday and have been resting, slowing down, and not working out (well, this has been the case for about a month due to an expired gym membership) for the past 5 days.
So maybe I got my period because I slowed down and rested. I’m not sure. But I’m certainly not going to try and figure it out. It’s too much energy attempting to answer questions that may not have answers.
Where my mind does go though, is to what many of my friends have told me about their own experience. I have friends who never got their period, got it once, got pregnant, and never got their period again.
You see where I’m going with this, right?
My mind immediately jumps to… oh my gosh, that’s going to be my story! I am so excited. I have not had my period for over 17 years, and now I got it by God’s amazing gifting, and now I’ll get pregnant this month.
Yes, I have already charted out my monthly schedule on my Kindara phone app and have informed my husband of ‘the plan’…
How quickly my mind can ‘go there’, forgetting that it was not by my doing that brought me this period… and it won’t be by my doing that will get us pregnant.
I need to remain openhanded and hopeful of what is possible, while accepting Gods plan and perfect.
If we get pregnant off this one period, we will rejoice. If we do not get pregnant off this period, we will rejoice.
Either way we are praying for Gods will and guidance.
Getting a period after all the medicine I’ve tried that didn’t produce a period shows me this:
I’m not in control and God can do miracles.