The medication worked! We have 2 major follicles (19mm and 17mm) that are presenting strong and proud on the ultrasound screen.
We’re making a baby here folks!
Dr. G is happy with the results and scheduled our IUI for 4 days from now.
I’m not a patient person and was ready to give myself the trigger shot of HCG today and be ready to go in 2 days but am trusting Dr. G knows what he’s doing.
I’m thrilled! This cycle is not lost and we have a shot, even at twins, ha!
God, thank you for being so good to us. I trust that these extra 3 days were for your purpose and in your plan and give these next few days over to you.
I’m a little scared because tonight before bed I noticed my cervical mucus is stringy, like egg yolk. Everything I have read points this to mean that I’m on the verge of ovulation.
I pee on an Ovulation stick, an “O” stares back at me, meaning not ovulating.
Okay, maybe this is just pre-ovulation fluid, I try and convince myself.
I become a little upset that we aren’t triggering ovulation tonight in order to catch this timing correctly.
What do I know though? The only thing I know about this type of stuff is what I have read on Google and heard through my friends.
God, I trust you.
I say this over and over again, calming my fears.
I lay down to rest for the night… God, I trust you.
I wake up, pee on the stick, still an “O” starring at me. My mucus is still slick and I am a bit fearful that we’ve missed it. I can’t think about this though, I have to trust what the Dr. is saying.
The plan is to wake up at 1am tonight/tomorrow to give me the HCG trigger shot. It has to be administered 36-hours prior to the IUI appointment.
I’m less than thrilled.
The shot is a compact dose of HCG hormone.
It sends heat through my body and I am overtaken with hormones.
I can’t go back to sleep.
I stay up for the next hour, reading.
God, how am I supposed to go to work tomorrow on such little sleep?
Oh my gosh, how am I going to have babies who need me in the middle of the night if I can’t even do this one time?
I am psyching myself out.
I take a deep breath.
I will cross that bridge when I come to it.
God, I trust in your timing and your plans. I trust that you know what is best for us and you know what our futures hold. I leave all these worries in your hands and will do what you have placed in front of me to do, today.
The IUI day is here.
I don’t know what to expect and am a bit fearful because I’m not experiencing any of the ovulation cramping I have in the past. This just feeds my fears that my ovulation window has passed and we are about to spend $400+ dollars on a procedure that is worthless because the egg has already come and gone.
How quickly I enter into the negativity.
It really doesn’t help me to be thinking this way or to be in fear.
I just don’t know how else to be in situations of unknown. I am changing my mind around to be in faith and trust that this is the perfect timing.
Hubby goes in at 11am for his contribution to this effort.
He signs some papers and labels what he needs to with his name and date of birth.
His part is done.
For the next 2 hours, the nurses clean it and test the swimmers. They take out all the swimmers who didn’t show up for the race and label each swimmer with a “0, 1, 2, or 3”- based on motility.
Only the “3’s” make it back into the tube.
After sorting through all of them, they are ready for me.
I follow up at 1pm for my procedure.
I check in and am directed downstairs to receive the swimmers. I have to sign paperwork and double check that the labels all have the information of Hubby. They walk through the process of how they cleaned the swimmers and also showed me how they ensure that these swimmers in front of me are the same as Hubby.
I am impressed with the concise and thorough process of confirming that these swimmers are meant for me.
I head back upstairs with the swimmers in my hand. Not to shake them or tip the tube as they are all ready for me.
I’m scared that this is our one shot at it and it may already be unsuccessful just at the mere chance that the egg is gone.
I have to stop this thinking.
I choose to believe that there is an egg (or two) just getting ready to be released.
I choose to believe that there are swimmers at the ready.
It’s as though we are getting the two together at a party and saying, “here, meet each other”.
I’ve done all that I can.
What would help the most at this moment is for me to relax and take deep breaths. There’s nothing to fear, nothing to control, nothing that I can do to help anything more than what we’ve already done.
I just have to BE.
Calm, peaceful, hopeful.
What an experience.
I walk into the room with the nurses and they were so incredibly reassuring.
I spoke with the nurses and they don’t feel it’s too late.
In fact, they said the timing seems right on and to stop Googling!
There were two nurses helping with the efforts and although it was not the most enjoyable experience when the catheter is inserted, it’s wonderful to know those swimmers got all the way up there.
And now we wait, pray and trust.